Most valuable gem

I bought some gem stones today.

Also a bracelet made with all the stones. But then, I was debating how much more to spend, for it’s an endless street. You go in, and unless your brain pulls you out, you just don’t stop. I got so attracted to Malachite that I just couldn’t express. I went wayyyy beyond my budget to indulge in … yes, gem stones.

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The beautiful Malachite

But then that’s not what I want to tell you about.

This very benign gentleman, humble as ever, recognized me as soon as I entered Lucky Gems. He was very happy to see me. We got talking and he said he had just returned from Kashmir, having spent 20 days with his Sufi guru.

And I was really amazed. He was so humble. He said something that really struck me.

In his words,”My Guru says that we plan such huge things, big dreams, bigger houses, long cars, huge bungalows, loads of money, but we don’t realize that the ENTIRE life is inside just that O.N.E. L.I.T.T.L.E. H.E.A.R.T.B.E.A.T. That’s all. Jab tak woh dhadkan hai, tab tak zindagi hai.”

Now, can I say without a doubt that this bit of knowledge has made me millions more richer than any money would.

I told him, “Uncle, you know, what I just bought from you might be precious gem stones, but they are not the most valuable thing that I am taking away with me from you – it’s these words that you just said, that are precious.”

And I just came back home, ONLY to blog about this, and share my ecstasy with the world.

I will add pictures of my coveted bracelets and stones in my subsequent blog posts.

For now, I am mighty enchanted. Mmmm…

Diaries of a Hechicera: Meet me ;-)

Hechicera means Enchantress – one who can put a spell on you with her qualities.

Today, Hechicera reveals herself.
She is the girl next door , the girl of your dreams, the lady in your fantasies.

She is a dreamer, a compulsive dreamer. She is inside you – the person who has always wished for the moon and the stars. She lives in her own world, she has her own language, she sings her own songs…

She has nothing to do with the big bad world. In her little world, there is only love, affection, kindness and gentleness. She does not want to leave her world. She wants to stay there forever. She wants her friends and her love to join her in her world. She wants to keep them away from the big bad world.

Call her Maya. She is Maya – the lady who danced in green fields in the white dress.. her dupatta flowing with the winds… her arms dancing to the enchanting tune… she is your imagination.

She is on a journey towards the Unknown. But she has faith that the Unknown will be where her heart is. She is constantly searching for the elusive someone. She is searching for her heart. She thinks the destination will be the start of another journey. If you follow her, she will crumble away into nothingness. If you try to touch her,she will melt away. If you want her, you can never have her. If you already have her, you can never lose her. She – is Hechicera.

Here’s my question to you, my lovely readers.

Who is YOUR Hechicera? Why is she your Hechicera?

Let us see you answer this one. I would like to know who Maya is for all of you out there reading this fantasy story.

A Spiritual Journey it is

8 years back, I stepped into my first spiritual experience. It was profound pain that pushed me into this path. Not that I was not religious, I was. But this journey was a different one – one, that would help me understand and appreciate life’s gifts and manage that pain from suffering to forgiveness.

Now, now, don’t imagine me in saffron or white. I don’t see that as anything close to spiritual. My concept, after a lot of introspection, extrospection and retrospection, boiled down to one understanding – that e.v.e.r.y. thing in the world is energy. The sky, the clouds, the trees, the earth, materials, metals, idols, buildings, human beings – everything is energy.

When I enter a place, I can immediately feel its vibe. I either like some cities or don’t. Has nothing to do with anything except vibes.

There are times when I can not tolerate some strangers. I find them creepy and full of negative energies. I move away.

I don’t yet understand completely what my journey is headed towards, but the exploration and discovery every day and every minute delight me to no end.

With this note, let me leave you with these little owls that I have suddenly got crazy about. I am collecting them!!!

One day…

I am sure, one day, the bitterness will fade away
Into the depths of a black memory hole that has taken my peace away.
I am sure, one day, all that will remain is love
The overwhelming pure giving love that’s there in my heart.

I am sure, one day, the hurt will not hurt anymore
And sleep will not be filled with nightmares galore
My face reeks of indolent under-eyes, of how many tears they cried
Of hope that kept gnawing at me, leading me to big disappointments.

One day, the emptiness will not wrench my heart
And no matter how desolate I feel, I will still make a start
One day, the lonely eyes will stop looking here and there
For a face that never existed, only in dreams, I was aware.

The constant connectedness like two souls became one,
Witnessing something strong – like a psychic connection
Sometimes I wonder is true love a destroyer,
Destroyer for one, redeemer for the other

Projecting my own goodness on another did me well
For it was a grave I had dug up so well
My mentor told me, “It was you, not him.”
You saw yourself in him, not him.

Today, I stand. Today, is one day.
No more is my heart wrenched,
No more the tears, my eyes dried, a bit too much
No more is my heart ready to tear

Today, is that one day. Only love today and thereon.
Just pure love in my heart. For you, for him,
For all of them, the owners of my tears.
She said I am unconditional – am I? Maybe.

All I know, is that it’s okay. Today. It’s truly okay.
The choices we make are the choices that make us.
Life is one big universe with a whole lot to offer.
All I remember now, are only the good times

No regrets. No sorrow. No pining. No pitying.
No nothing. Only peace. I wish the same for all.
Today I stand. Calm and Composed. I stand tall.
Today I thank in grace. I thank you and all.